On August 16, 1976, JESSE SUBLETT was a fledgling bass player riding high on the afterglow of his rock band's first San Antonio gig. Then he returned to his South Austin rent house and discovered his girlfriend, Dianne Roberts, murdered. In his memoir, NEVER THE SAME AGAIN (A ROCK 'N' ROLL GOTHIC) (Boaz/Ten Speed), Sublett examines his life through the dual prisms of survivor's guilt (could he have prevented Roberts's death?) and a survivor's ethic (he confronted his own mortality in a bout with stage IV throat cancer). Along the way he culls wry anecdotes from his eclectic résumé as not-quite-famous musician, hard-boiled mystery novelist, documentary screenwriter, and now-emotionally rehabilitated husband and father while leavening the raw sadness with honesty and optimism.